Hello Internet friends,
It's been a while since we've had a heart to heart, so settle in with a cuppa, cause I'm going to bare my soul to you on this grey Tuesday morning.
So, regular readers will know by now that the last few months have been kinda tough with family stuff going on. My Granddad was diagnosed with cancer back in December and in all honesty, he's not getting better, nor is he going to. And for me, I've somehow reached the ripe old age of 22 without losing anyone close to me, never mind being in this bizarre limbo land I'm currently in, where we are watching him slowly deteriorate. It's hard. It's really hard. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
I'm not telling you this for the sympathy vote, but rather because, this blog has always been about my life, and my life right now - well that's what it looks like right now. Life is panicking every time I miss a phone call from my mum. Life is spending all my spare time at home with my family. Life is not making any plans in advance because we don't really have a timeframe for this stuff. Life is tiring, hard and emotionally draining. Life is struggling to think of anything but what's going on at home.
Right now everything just seems insignificant. I can't summon the motivation to do much other than be at home with my family. Everything has gone on hold because writing about makeup and clothes, or tweeting or filming or anything really - just feels a bit wrong. I haven't kept what's going on with my family a secret, but I've never really known how much it is appropriate to disclose. But I think I was forgetting that this blog, yes it's about you guys, the readers, but it's also about me. I've been so worried thinking about what you want to read, I forgot about writing what I want to write.
So I guess what I'm saying is - I'm not making any promises. I'm not promising to daily post. I'm not promising a weekly video. I'm not promising beauty, fashion and lifestyle content delivered in a neat little parcel. What I will do is create content that feels right, and content that does not feel like a chore to write.
Thank you for sticking with me. It's not been the greatest few months, but you guys are a nice little happy addition.
With love, hugs and internet brownies xxx
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